Danny's Prom (AKA: AWESOME)

So here's how to sum it up in one word: Perfect.
Now, was that summing up Danny's Prom, or his personality? lol Well, both of course!!!

I spent a couple days worrying over whether or not I would even be allowed to go. So many people told me to go even if his parents refused to allow me to come. But I couldn't do that because my mother refused to take me if his parents didn't agree. I actually got half of the bargain . . . his mother agreed. His father doesn't know. My mom called his mom on Danny's request and she helped Danny's mom through some tough stuff. Danny thinks that she's better now than she was (disappointed and in denial).

So anyways, I went and OMG was I glad that I made it. Apparently there were photos in the park at 5:00 PM but I couldn't make it there in time. We were really lucky to have made it there by 6:00 PM, actually. I texted Danny and he met me in the parking lot of the OTHER Code's Mill building (apparently there are two lol). He brought me into the dinner, introduced me to people throughout the night, and was the BEST boyfriend anyone could ever ask for. Of course, Im biased . . . But not enough to make what I said untrue <3 (Love you Danny).

We had so much fun just being together for the first time since he's came out to his parents. After the Prom, we waited in a park for my parents to pick me up and we just hung out there. It was really nice to get to hug him again, since I've missed him for so long. Every time he smiled . . . lol I just melted . . . It was one of the best times I've had EVER.

Seems that a lot of my best moments have been with him . . . Can't wait to see what happens next then <3 Love you SO much Danny <3

I'll post later. Byessss *huggles*

It Hurts So Much . . .

I realize that you only really know that you love someone and want to spend the rest of your life with them when something that happened to this person affects you emotionally as well . . . You think about them all day, you get worried when they don't reply to your texts right away (and yes, I have a smartphone now). You get really upset when it doesn't look like they're coping with a certain situation well . . . You get sick of so much so fast when life throws you curveballs. It's even worse when the curveballs are being thrown to home plate and you're standing out in left field -- there's no way to get there in time to stop the ball. You can only watch . . .

Danny came out to his parents and they've gone through the whole denial thing. They're still going through it. His dad wants him to try going out with girls . . . If he forces Danny to date a girl I WILL hurt him . . . Because I'm gonna be crushed. Karma says that someone else has to suffer, too.
I don't know if Danny went through this process when I came out to my parents but I've been so incredibly stressed that I've been losing sleep, I can't solve problems in physics and calculus, I can't read more than a paragraph of a book without thinking if he's okay . . . I've been on the verge of tears the entire day. At one point in physics class I wanted to just storm out of the class, break down, and cry.

Is it wrong to be worrying this much over him? . . . Is it right not to be worrying about him as much as this? It's almost like I'm reliving my own coming-out experience. All the emotions and memories are blending in with these new emotions and the present . . . It's too much to handle. I wasn't prepared for him coming out so soon.

Don't get me wrong, I think it's great that he came out. I love him to death and everything but I had no idea that I'd relive everything. I want him to pull through and I want us to come out of this still together -- and stronger than ever . . 

I just need the world to stop moving . . . I just need to breathe . . . I just want him to be okay <3