Last Weekend

I have become notorious for periodic posts. Maybe it's cuz I feel like no one is reading? Oh well, gets things off my chest and allows me to organize my thoughts.
And I know my boy reads these <3>Danners was over last weekend (Halloween weekend) and it was preeeeeeeeeeeety great =)
We picked up Danny a little early (yay!!!) and then we cuddled in the back seat alllllll the way home. He's so adorable when he's like that!

We got home on the Friday night and just mostly hung out. I think that was the night we decided to go get some KFC. We arrived there at like 9:55, just as they were about to close so they let us have some REALLY cheap chicken pieces. Danny wanted a crunch-somethingorother (Big Crunch Sandwich, hun?) instead but they refused to make it. Would have taken SIX minutes and they closed in FIVE. Assholes.

So we went back home, ate our chicken, and cuddled some more :) <3>

Saturday morning rolled around and we just snuggled and hung out again. And Jill, this was the day the "mouse got the cheese". Happy now? (If you don't understand what I mean, don't bother lol). Then came Halloween night itself, the "main event". I was supposed to have a bunch of people over, but we scrapped that idea when 2 people cancelled and things weren't coming together as planned. Krista and her boyfriend stopped over for a quick visit anyways while Danny and I were watching a movie.

Speaking of which, we rented 3 movies: Mutant Chronicles, The Haunting in Connecticut, and The Unborn. We also watched Paranormal Activity (which scared me Saturday night and prevented me from sleeping all that well lol). Before Krista and her bf stopped by, Danny and I had a chocolate fondue by the candlelight (AWWWWHHH!!!) and cuddled LOTS.

Sunday morning we snuggled again and dropped him off in Perth for his mom to pick him up. On the way there, he said that he always worried about me more than he worried about himself when we part ways after dropping him off. That's really something that hit me hard: he really worries about me when he's away. I kinda figured that he would, but hearing him say it means SO much more than just me thinking it, or taking it for granted.

Same thing goes for him telling me that he loves me . . . he did that quite a bit on the weekend.

I love you too, Daniel <3>

<3 WOW AWESOME WEEKEND WITH DANNERS!!! <3

I love you Danny!!!

So seven months has come and gone. SEVEN FUCKING MONTHS WITH DANNY!!!
Seven months with my boyfriend.
Seven months with my future husband.
Seven months with the guy of my dreams.
Seven months of bliss
Seven months with my Danny <3

He came over this weekend and we spend the entire weekend together. Left my University and then picked him up at his school in Perth and then drove back to my hometown.
I started unpacking my stuff and what does he do? He comes in my room cuz he knows that I'm alone in there and hugs me. I love this kid <3
Then we cuddled for the rest of the night, just watching TV and me holding on to him *_*

Then it was the hockey game on Saturday night. The "MAIN EVENT" because I wanted to be with him at the starting of the Sens regular season. We lost (boo!!!) but I think that Danny and I won ;p . . . cuz we cuddled the whole game. There was a fondue intermission that I think Danners liked a lot so I'm gonna help him shop for his mom and his aunt for Christmas later on in the year. After the game, we cuddled some more and he fell asleep in my arms (awwwwhhh!!!) I was told later in the AM that he woke up and reached over for me but I was in my own bed (had to go or my mom would have killed me). Next time, I'm gonna stay, Danny <3 For you.
Then we had to drive him back to Lanark so he took a shower and then we hopped in the van and fell asleep on one another. He was soooooooo fucking cute!!! I just held him as he was laying on my lap and I fell asleep too.

When he left, I was so sad to see his truck drive away . . . but I know that he really liked this visit (no matter how clingy I was the whole time). I wanna do that again sometime soon. Maybe in December . . . For the Holidays for about four days maybe?

I love him so much . . . He's the one I'm gonna marry . . . He's the perfect one for me.
DANNY, I LOVE YOU!!! <3

6 Months

The song is called 6 Months and it's by a band called Hey Monday. Coincidentally, it's the 6 month anniversary between me and Danners and it's been the BEST 6 months of my life. He's just been so amazing with every little thing that he does . . . he's so meant for me.

I was vacationing in Calabogie, near Danny's house, and we picked him up while his parents weren't home. He stayed with us in our AMAZING hotel for a few days and I got to spend some awesome quality time with him.

We swam in the lake there and he gave me a piggyback ride through the water (which was awesome and really cute). One of the other days, we went off to play tennis (shirts were off ;p) and I discovered that I was more in shape than my boyfriend! He was getting tired after almost an hour of tennis so we called it a day and went inside to relax. Just watched a couple movies and cuddled LOTS.
He slept over one of the days he was over (we usually brought him back before his parents came home) and got one of his friends to cover for him. I don't think it was ethical, but when you're in love, you say "fuck ethics" lol That morning he got up late (I had tucked him in the night before . . . in a CLEAN way, people) and we just cuddled in bed. lol He was so cute and I just loved watching him . . . I know it sounds weird but when you love someone, sometimes it's all you wanna do.

OH! And I totally bought him this expensive necklace from one of the local artisans. I didn't think he liked it at first but I think maybe he warmed up to it . . . He looks SO cute with it on, I cant even begin to describe it . . .

Love you, Danny. Happy 6 Months!!! <3

Stuff Going On

So on Saturday it was my Mom's birthday, and she didn't want me to buy her anything (I'm supposed to be saving for University) so instead I wrote her some sappy letter telling her how much she meant to me. She cried a lot lol. Pretty great

Anyways I've been working for the past 4 days, killer shifts, on my feet all day, and dealing with stupid people (stupid customers, more specifically). Some of them should just be shot, honestly. Then there was this whole shift problem to deal with today, but it got sorted out and I'm supposed to work again tonight . . . yay . . .
FUCK, I'm tired of working lol But the money is AWESOME, so I guess I'll take all the shifts I can get lol.

And in a couple weeks (maybe in as little as 1) I'll get my FULL G Class license!!! So no more restrictions AT ALL!!! (not that the restrictions are even that hindering) So if anyone needs a ride anywhere ;p Don't call me lol

I'll post later.
Byessss *huggles*

Ottawa with Danny

So yesterday was SO much fun!!!

I finally got to see Danny again (it's been a while) and it was better than I thought it would be. I know FOR SURE that I love this guy. I was depressed a day or two before seeing him because I didn't think we'd ever get to see each other as often. His parents are still struggling with the fact that he's gay and his dad still hasn't said a single word about him being gay since he told his parents. So I'm really worried as to how he's gonna see me in Ottawa. Sure, it's closer than where I am now, but how is he gonna come up and visit me? :(
So anyways, yeah, I was depressed. On MSN I told him that it's unhealthy to be in a relationship where you never see the other person (which is true) and then he said that he would NEVER dump me for any reason . . . Like seriously? My heart melted then and there. I love him . . . SOOO much . . . and I'm very certain that he feels the same about me (if not 100%, then 99.9999999999999% certain).

So my mom drove me up to Ottawa where we picked up Danny, who was visiting with his Aunt and Uncle for a week. They were both at work (but they knew that a friend was coming to pick him up). The minute Danny stepped out of the house and I could see him, my heart skipped a beat.
We stayed in the van while my mom shopped until we went out for lunch at A&W and then WE went shopping at the place we first met: the Bayshore Shopping Centre. The goal was to try and find Danny some hott clothes . . . which we succeeded in doing (the kid looks sexy in anything, let's face it). So he bought a really nice Hurley shirt that I ordered him not to wear while he's working and doing stuff in the yard or outside. Then he picked out a sexy pair of Adidas shoes at Footlocker and when I dressed him up in American Eagle as he sat on a chair near the change rooms, he looks so adorable!!! Like, with the clothes, it heightened my love for every little thing about him! I know it sounds shallow, but he just looked and seemed . . . like he got an upgrade lol.
And they say that great clothes makes the person feel great. Hell, it even makes their boyfriend feel great!!!

All in all, one of the funnest days of my life <3
Thanks Danny for asking me to be your boy . . . Saying "yes" is something that I'll never regret. I love you, Stunner.

*huggles* Byes!!! I'll post later!

Danny's Prom (AKA: AWESOME)

So here's how to sum it up in one word: Perfect.
Now, was that summing up Danny's Prom, or his personality? lol Well, both of course!!!

I spent a couple days worrying over whether or not I would even be allowed to go. So many people told me to go even if his parents refused to allow me to come. But I couldn't do that because my mother refused to take me if his parents didn't agree. I actually got half of the bargain . . . his mother agreed. His father doesn't know. My mom called his mom on Danny's request and she helped Danny's mom through some tough stuff. Danny thinks that she's better now than she was (disappointed and in denial).

So anyways, I went and OMG was I glad that I made it. Apparently there were photos in the park at 5:00 PM but I couldn't make it there in time. We were really lucky to have made it there by 6:00 PM, actually. I texted Danny and he met me in the parking lot of the OTHER Code's Mill building (apparently there are two lol). He brought me into the dinner, introduced me to people throughout the night, and was the BEST boyfriend anyone could ever ask for. Of course, Im biased . . . But not enough to make what I said untrue <3 (Love you Danny).

We had so much fun just being together for the first time since he's came out to his parents. After the Prom, we waited in a park for my parents to pick me up and we just hung out there. It was really nice to get to hug him again, since I've missed him for so long. Every time he smiled . . . lol I just melted . . . It was one of the best times I've had EVER.

Seems that a lot of my best moments have been with him . . . Can't wait to see what happens next then <3 Love you SO much Danny <3

I'll post later. Byessss *huggles*

It Hurts So Much . . .

I realize that you only really know that you love someone and want to spend the rest of your life with them when something that happened to this person affects you emotionally as well . . . You think about them all day, you get worried when they don't reply to your texts right away (and yes, I have a smartphone now). You get really upset when it doesn't look like they're coping with a certain situation well . . . You get sick of so much so fast when life throws you curveballs. It's even worse when the curveballs are being thrown to home plate and you're standing out in left field -- there's no way to get there in time to stop the ball. You can only watch . . .

Danny came out to his parents and they've gone through the whole denial thing. They're still going through it. His dad wants him to try going out with girls . . . If he forces Danny to date a girl I WILL hurt him . . . Because I'm gonna be crushed. Karma says that someone else has to suffer, too.
I don't know if Danny went through this process when I came out to my parents but I've been so incredibly stressed that I've been losing sleep, I can't solve problems in physics and calculus, I can't read more than a paragraph of a book without thinking if he's okay . . . I've been on the verge of tears the entire day. At one point in physics class I wanted to just storm out of the class, break down, and cry.

Is it wrong to be worrying this much over him? . . . Is it right not to be worrying about him as much as this? It's almost like I'm reliving my own coming-out experience. All the emotions and memories are blending in with these new emotions and the present . . . It's too much to handle. I wasn't prepared for him coming out so soon.

Don't get me wrong, I think it's great that he came out. I love him to death and everything but I had no idea that I'd relive everything. I want him to pull through and I want us to come out of this still together -- and stronger than ever . . 

I just need the world to stop moving . . . I just need to breathe . . . I just want him to be okay <3